>>>>>>>>okay lang un noh.. :) konting alog-alog lang sa mind mo nang makita mong kinabukasan mo sa mundong balak mong tahakin... a friendly advice brought to you by Budget&Decision Support Inc... hehehe...
>>>>>>>hay, may no entry sign kasi dun sa bundok na yun, nagover the bakod pa kasi ako.. salamat talaga ha..
>>>>>>siguradong may Emergency path naman ung bundok na un before ka pa maligaw... not unless gusto mo pang sumige at ang tanging paraan na lang para makababa ka sa mountain na un is through sa pagbaba sa matarik na daan gamit ang lubid... hmmMmm?
>>>>>naghahanap na nga ako ng parachute para mas mabilis... hay on a serious note, hirap pumasok sa trabaho na lumilipad utak ha... gusto ko nga kausapin si noel pa eh...
>>>>wag mo nah.. u wont get any consolation... men are lyk that by nature.. c noel, pagsabihan mo man ngaun, ganun at ganun pa rin...
>>>hay i just wanna curl up and die now... or at least go somewhere na wala akong iisipin.. marunong ka bang maghypnotize??
>>jan ka ngkamali... :) stand straight and chin up... what had happen has passed... all u hav to do is let the past not to recur again... regain urself... that's the least consolation u could give to us, especially to ur self.. chorva, di ka naman namin iiwan noh... i hav errors and faults iv made in the past, nu ka ba... di mo kailangang mahiya. mahiya ka pag naulit ulit un... :)
>mare, thank you, super kailangan ko to ngayon...
konting kontrol lang... konting-konti pa... :)
a long time since i've been here and i just had the sudden urge to write.
i don't know if i'm feeling guilty or what, it's just that the father's of my 2 co-workers here died last saturday and people from the office have started to visit their wakes.
i have a problem with it., i am not comfortable with attending a father's funeral simply because i do not want to re-live that moment when i was the one experiencing the loss. the memory of it still hurts because a lot of things has been revealed to me during that time and up until now, i guess it hasn't really sunk in yet, i tell people that it's nothing to me, but until my family realizes that they need to clear up everything in our family's history then i will just probably run away from it and act like its nothing.
my friends have told me that i should face this "fear" so i can go on with my life, but yeah, i think i can go on with it, it just that whenever a friend of mine loses his/her father, i will probably not visit them. i am sorry but this is who i am, i am scared of feeling that emotion before that made me lose trust in my family, because they didn't tell me the truth and left me to discover a lot of things that has been traumatic, it pobably changed my whole view on everything and i guess, i might be a different person today if they found time before to explain my father's disappearance for a month or so instead of telling me he's been called off to work in the army..
yes, i am bitter, i am angry if you think about it, but never will i be the one to ask about it, its their responsibility to tell me.
so if ever i end up a serial killer, you probably know why.
due to a heavy rain on my parade, i have only logged in today since i may not be able to next time. it's been on my to-do list to update but yeah, when you're super stressed out, you don't want to vent out by writing, it's only appropriate that you play contra on your nintendo ds and kill all those damn soldiers that keep trying to blow you up.
see... you can only imagine how my life works out every day.
i have to go now because i need to strangle someone due to non acceptance of deliveries.
I have only 20 entries for 2009.
i have lost my mojo.
i'm dying from the pain i'm feeling in my mid-section, or whatever you call tht part that hurts when you have your period. i'm feeling restless and dizzy and sleepy and like i can't keep myself from throwing up.
i hate feeling like this.
i'm feeling crappier since i have to work and get out at exactly 6pm to pick up the cake i've reserved at SM north for my sister's 24th wedding anniversary.
i really need to sleep! haven't slept at all this weekend since i had to go a drive my niece around.
Lord, please help me to get through today.
ok, i don't hate the rain that much, i kinda like it, come to think of it. it's relaxing and soothing and i especially love lightning, its really beautiful, the way you see this wonderful light strike across the sky...
it's the walking in the rain and splashing dirt all over my pants that i hate.
really, how pathetic can i be, i don't know how to walk under the rain. as much as i try to carefully go through it, i always end up with my pants wet, sometimes even up to my ankles. i have tried different ways of walking but nothing works.
so. this is one of those things i need to find a cure for.